You ever meet someone and immediately feel like you’ve known them before? Their energy feels comfortable like an old stretched sweatshirt, familiar in a way that has you saying “aren’t we already friends?”, when being introduced. The energy of their soul so perfectly in tune with yours, you’re convinced this is kismet.

The older I get the more I believe in the theory of reason or season. We are predestined to meet various people throughout our lives, all strategically assigned to your life. And though the path is always ours to walk and free will guarantees some poor choices at the forks of life, those assigned will cross your path. Some people are only in our lives for a small amount of time and others a lifetime. Those who are a mere blip on the radar are typically “reason” visitors. No matter the outcome there is always a lesson to learn, a reason you met, but not everyone will fully understand the reason. It could be as simple as a women in line at the grocery store with whom you share your recent diagnosis of an off the wall affliction. Perhaps she then passes that information along to her cousin and it saves their life. It could also be more obvious like befriending a self destructive alcoholic whose behavior reaffirms your sobriety. Perhaps it’s the beautiful woman who breaks your heart, but she taught you to appreciate the journey but protect your heart.

But the pain of lose with some departed characters are felt deeper then that of others. Sometimes the reason to be revealed at a later time, but you suffer the anguish and heart wrench of a love lost NOW. If the pain is to unbearable, too much to take… you numb yourself to survive. The treatment for fear of abandonment is abandonment. It’s like taking the child and throwing them off the proverbial dock into the murky waters below. Sink or swim….Darwin decides.

Once again I digress … excuse me for my inability to focus. My inability to stream line my thoughts into one singular path of logic. Sometimes I’m playing Tetris in my head with my thoughts, just matching up the ones that relate so they can go away. I don’t want them to pile up, I don’t want to loose or give up , but sometimes the game should end. Haha … changing the Title because again I digress.