I’m having one of those moments where I can hardly see as I type because the tears are flowing as if a dam had broke. I can feel a heavy presence in my chest and throat. My nose is running down my chin mixed with the tears and I don’t even care. I swallow again and again trying to push out that dark feeling of sickness and sorrow that is alive inside me. I’m bursting. Today was the day it clicked. I’ve never felt so heartbroken in all my life. I wish I could change things but I know I can’t and now I must learn the lesson. Life is not for the weak. Someday memories will be all that we have, so make many. I will always hold a place for you in my heart because I will always love you. The thought of never seeing you again is so unbearably painful, I cannot bring my self to comprehend the words as I write this… maybe someday. Please take care of yourself. I wish you a wonderful life, I honestly do. I hope it’s something even more incredible then what I dreamed of building with you. The moment I met you I felt I knew you, we talked about that. Maybe we had met in another life. I really hope that’s true. So remember, until the next lifetime my dear., I will always love you.