As I wander through my days in a haze so thick it numbs the soul. It clouds the view of tomorrow and makes today bearable, she is silent. I move along with the motions of life. A lesson I didn’t remember I’d learned , but I did, Just as I was taught. Time slips by as she silently waits yet I continue to reject a future. Her silence is always preferred as I cannot deal with her pain. She who holds the secrets and sorrows is the one who cries at night. She is waiting for me to save her yet I’m waiting for someone to save me.
Welcome!!!! Hey I’m Lola, I’m a 49 year old female divorced, cat mom on her journey of healing, mental health, addictions, boundaries, choices, self love, self worth, codependency and overall search for self. I’m not a writer. I’m one of the millions of people on this planet who are struggling just like me, on their own journey. So why this? Well - I needed a less self destructive outlet then I’ve recently been using as I learn new ways to deal/feel with emotions 🙄 And recording my journey and sharing it with the abyss seems like a totally legit idea 😉 Thanks for reading - Always be kind, even to yourself.
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