I’m not sure my soul will ever get it right. I love the wrong people or the wrong way. I only mean well but it’s just harmful. I am so sorry for all the pain I have caused and if I could take it all back I would. I deserve the hell I am destined to live and I pray I am strong enough to survive it. I’m not even sure I know what love feels like, I think I did once. I am questioning everything I’ve ever done or said to anyone. I am questioning the very core of myself, a definition that’s never actually been written. When you gain all your worth from others and all of a sudden there is no one , your left with the void. And the void is the very thing you were trying to escape. Nothing ever fills the void.
Love void
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Welcome!!!! Hey I’m Lola, I’m a 49 year old female divorced, cat mom on her journey of healing, mental health, addictions, boundaries, choices, self love, self worth, codependency and overall search for self. I’m not a writer. I’m one of the millions of people on this planet who are struggling just like me, on their own journey. So why this? Well - I needed a less self destructive outlet then I’ve recently been using as I learn new ways to deal/feel with emotions 🙄 And recording my journey and sharing it with the abyss seems like a totally legit idea 😉 Thanks for reading - Always be kind, even to yourself. View all posts by Me
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