Driving to the store this morning my mind was drifting off as it does. The sun was shining and stair way to heaven was playing softly in the background. I was pondering the answer to what is happiness, what is the solution? It’s like my entire life has been me trying to solve a Rubik’s cube. One side is happiness, one face is success… each side a different solution and the most I could ever get were 2 at once. Then it dawned on me today, after the fog clears and I wipe the sleep from my eyes from 1000 drunken nights, what if there is no solution. What if all the sides as they come into focus are really the same color and I’ve been twisting myself in knots trying to solve a puzzle that wasn’t really a puzzle after all. What if it was just a distraction, a shiny object that has monopolized my time and kept me twisting and turning looking for the right combination that wasn’t there? Perhaps it’s just my perception that has lead me here. In my haste to solve the puzzle, I failed to recognize that the sides were the same and so began a puzzle that I could never solve. Just some thoughts…
Rubik’s Cube
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Welcome!!!! Hey I’m Lola, I’m a 49 year old female divorced, cat mom on her journey of healing, mental health, addictions, boundaries, choices, self love, self worth, codependency and overall search for self. I’m not a writer. I’m one of the millions of people on this planet who are struggling just like me, on their own journey. So why this? Well - I needed a less self destructive outlet then I’ve recently been using as I learn new ways to deal/feel with emotions 🙄 And recording my journey and sharing it with the abyss seems like a totally legit idea 😉 Thanks for reading - Always be kind, even to yourself. View all posts by Me
